Phase 1, Week 1, Day 3

Hi friends!  How are you today?  I've been better.

Today I had a meltdown at home after school.  I was tired, hungry, and I REALLY wanted carbs!  The source of my discouragement came from the fact that I am unable to eat between meals.  SBD builds in two snacks a day to help keep your blood sugar up and to keep you from binge eating at meal times.  I am a teacher and my schedule doesn't allow me time to have a morning and afternoon snack.  So when I get home I am starving.

I have been trying to drink a V8 instead of eating a snack.  This is working okay, but I still wish I could eat something.  This afternoon I was super hungry and I needed to make dinner.  On top of that I was starting to freak out about going out to eat tomorrow.  I haven't eaten out yet on the diet and our Sunday School class is  going out to a Mexican restaurant tomorrow.  Mexican is one of my pitfalls.  I can easily eat my entire meal after consuming 2 bowls each of queso and salsa.  I love queso!  However, it isn't SBD friendly.  So I was tired, hungry, and freaking out that I was going to blow 3 days of good eating on queso.  I was a mess.

My husband asked me, "Would you rather have the carbs or be skinny?"  In that moment, I wanted the carbs.      I wanted the yummy, warm foods that fill me up and make have that warm fuzzy feeling inside.  I wanted pasta with butter and Parmesan, chicken and rice casserole, macaroni and cheese from the box, fresh baked bread, and movie theater popcorn.  At least, that's what the impulsive Size 14 woman inside of me wanted.  Somewhere deep inside the quiet voice of my former size 8 self whispered, "Let me out."  Deciding to listen to size 8 self I wiped my tears and marched my boo-heenie into the kitchen and made dinner.  I feel better now knowing that I didn't throw away three days of progress.   

Here is my food journal from Tuesday and today.

Tuesday
Breakfast
--2 eggs with texas pete
--2 slices turkey bacon
--1 cup decaf coffee

Snack
--1 cup regular coffee
--1 can V8

Lunch
--8 slices Chicken breast
--Cheese Stick
--Lime Jello

Snack
--1 can V8

Dinner
--Salad
--Chicken Nuggets leftovers
--Cheesy Zucchini leftovers

Today
Breakfast
--2 eggs with texas pete
--2 slices turkey bacon
--1 cup decaf coffee

Snack
--1 cup regular coffee
--1 can V8

Lunch
--Salad with Tuna
--Cheesestick
--Lime Jello

Snack
--V8

Dinner
--Turkey Taco Lettuce Wraps
--Avocado Salsa
--Salad